Dance Again - Blast from the past

I read an old blog I wrote long ago during college, I liked how I wrote back then so much more. I just wrote about whatever that was on my mind and I really felt like I was back inside my goofy thoughts. Then I noticed how much I've matured and gotten so boring. Yikes! I saw some old random shit I made on photoshop too. I used to be more creative. What the fuck happened? I miss the old creative me. So my goal is to write like I used to. I'm going to write about whatever random thing. Make some random photoshop artwork.

What does that all have to do with the song/video 'Dance Again' that I posted at the beginning of the post? I see my creativity/artwork as a metaphor for dancing. I saw that video last night and I'm probably going to do a dance to this song for my Cardio Fit Tease class. We're picking a song that represents our sexuality now. This video is pretty sexy and I do feel sexier now, I think it best depicts me at the moment. However, I should do some actual dancing again. I used to love dancing at the night clubs. I'm over night clubs though, but a few nights a year couldn't hurt. My view of sexy isn't the same as it was several years ago. Back then it was more like Cosmopolitan (the lame magazine that filled my head with things that I thought guys would think is sexy, and maybe the ones 25yrs and younger did think it was sexy), now I don't know how to describe sexiness, but it's definitely not Cosmo magazine.

Soft Shock - Goodbye to eHarmony and the like

Before I had met Chad, I met most guys through online dating. I did it for about a year and a half, it was a fun and exciting ride at first but it quickly got old and exhausting. I'd go through cycles of putting up my profile and then hiding it when I wasn't really feeling like meeting a guy. Most of my dates were only one maybe two meetups, and never to see each other again. When I got bored I'd put my profile back up then something happened where I was just over it and I'd take it down again. I got really selective towards the end and trying to keep an open mind was really difficult.

One of the best feelings of all was to permanently take down my profile. I waited a month or two into my relationship with Chad before I took down my profiles on eHarmony and Plenty of Fish. It was a different than the other times I hid my profile, I erased my profile. I can't explain the relief and happiness I felt when took down my profiles entirely.

During my single days, I was always optimistic about meeting someone, even when I was discouraged from dating. I felt that I was close to meeting that special someone even though I never knew what the next day would bring. I refused to believe that all the good ones were taken. I did meet some good guys, for some reason or another 'we' did not work out, I didn't like them or they didn't like me. We just weren't compatible. Even though I didn't meet Chad through online dating, I do recommend single ladies ages 25+ to do it and to not lose hope (also keep other avenues of meeting people open). So many people meet that way and it was the easiest way to meet a lot of people. It helped me really figure out what I wanted and what I didn't want, so a lot of good came out of it. When I met Chad, I  felt different than I felt with all the other guys I met before him, I knew that he was worthwhile... It was like a 'Soft Shock'.

We're over a year and a half into our relationship and I'm finally going to take him home to meet my family, that's a different story on it's own on why I took so freaking long. =P Anyhow, he's the first guy I'm bringing home formerly to meet the family in my life so it's a big deal.